There are two terrible things about losing Gayl. The first is that everyday I wake to find that she is not here and I must live another day with the knowledge that I will not see her or be with her. The second is that it was so useless, she was murdered by bureaucrats; people who interfered and prevented her from getting the surgery that would have saved her life. All in the name of obeying rules without any thought for their effect on her or even if they applied. Gayl had horrible pain for 19 years, 19. And they did not believe her, they thought she was lying in an attempt to get drugs. So, when her cancer was so advanced that she gushed blood with every step, they finally relented and let her have the surgery we had begged for, and it worked. The horrible pain went away. Grasp that if you can; her daily pain was worse than the pain caused by abdominal cancer 30 days before the end. Imagine the pain, the agony; and then imagine the government bureaucrats calling you a liar for 19 years, people saying you are a drug addict, and government people stopping you from getting the surgery you need. Imaging, if you can, the evil in those bureaucrats' hearts. Gayl was tortured to death by bureaucrats in the US; if they had left us alone she would be alive today and I would be with her. But she died in pain, uselessly, so that no bureaucrat would have to take responsibility for letting her have the surgery she needed. God may have mercy on their souls; all I can do is pray He does not and that He turns a deaf ear to their prayers.
I miss Gayl
